It's Time I Open Up

I sit here tonight with words that vaguely describe how i'm feeling..
Weeks have past since it what i considered as my world had collapsed into a massive pile of ash, I feel as though i'm falling into a pit that does not end and theres no way to get out. Ever since that certain day, nothing has helped me and I don't know what will and what do I have as a result ; bottled up feelings, bad SAC marks and no self confidence to pull my sorry ass out of the gutter that is my life. I guess the only thing thats keeping me going in these days that are my final year of high school is motivation of the certain people that I consider as my close friends. Although there is a limit to what close friends can do but I do thank all of you that have stuck by me and im surprised that you all can put up with me.

As i sit here i think about everything I've been through and I question was it worth it. Sacrifice is something that occurs during life and yet you are left with the What If questions that haunt our minds. Although we have to come to the realisation that nothing will ever bring back those minutes that made us make decisions in life. Regreting shouldnt be apart of life yet continues to haunt us giving us the questions such as ; I could of done something better to keep that or Maybe i should of been more paitent with her?

Well non the less I still feel as though nothing will make things better unless something really changes and all i know is that I Miss You