Just Stop

Stop telling me your problems because I don't want to know.

Stop asking for things because we both know your better off than I am.

Stop acting like you know me when you we both know I've changed.

Stop trying to make me change back because I realize that you've been taking advantage of me for too long.

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I want to leave. Somewhere far far away .

Someone help

Bad Dreams Yet So Life Like

The days when i don't hear from you , the days of silence.

It's the days I don't wish for

Along the way

A broken mess, just scattered pieces of who i am.

Scream the answer to my face

It's easy to hide behind others but when will you come out to show who you really are? I'm stuck within myself , asking many questions and thinking about many different situations but even with all these different questions they all lead me back to the same thing.

Honestly i dont want to think about the other outcomes, it's something I convinced myself long ago and i guess i'm being forced to change for those who i care about.

Time to stop thinking about me


Brian Sevilla

Awaiting Ahead

Let me wake up and realize what's really ahead of me

Left In Pieces

Another day, another way to make me think that life isn't so worth it. But then again that's what everyone says so what makes me so damn different from everyone else? I seriously thought i could wake up in the morning and go through my day without thinking about what has left me behind.

Why chase after someone that won't chase after you?

Who knows maybe seeing my happiness isn't something people want to see. But then again who's watching? Who is really looking out for you and are those people that you see from day to day really people you can rely on? Who knows... The question that keeps me awake at night is , Are the people that are giving you so called guidance really making the right decision themselves.

Can someone really make you who you want to be?

Maybe I'm just extremely unstable right now or maybe these are question that we should really be asking ourselves?

Brian Sevilla 2506

Upcoming

Pulling All Nighter Tonight Because I Simply Can

Events
English Sac Tuesday 28th April
All Nighter Friday 1st May
Upper Braces/ Accounting Sac Monday 4th May
Oral Presentation Wednesday 13th May


Currently Doing - Nothing

Coming Across

Lying in bed with a laptop isn't the best to get to fall asleep and well i guess there's nothing left to do than give my thoughts some way of expressing themselves. I make her miserable i cause her pain so why the fuck am i still holding on to something that is gone. I'm sorry that's all i really have to say. I can't change how i am and i can't change how i feel. But you should know i really am i trying. It's so hard for me after all we've been through to see you fade away from me and all i want to do is chase after you and ask you to come back but i guess i have to live with the fact that it's not going to happen unless something changes when i know it won't. You've told me countless times that you want nothing out of this because it will only lead to more pain and suffering for us. Why the fuck can't i get it through my head.


I Guess I Brought This Upon Myself


Brian Sevilla 2506

When I Look In Your Eyes

26 april 09

Sleep
Eat
Sleep
Homework
Being Cold

Nice day =D

You make it easier

It's not happiness that keeps you moving , its the fear of losing.

I Don't Know Where To Go.

Maybe someday

Be with you

I find everything ahead of me

It's far from the dream

The dream short lived

Things change and people change. That's something I'm still trying to grasp , maybe it's just me but I'm still not used to people leaving and drifting away from my life but it's something that happens with everything. People grow up, people change and I need to as well. Maybe this is fate or maybe it's just life


Maybe one day they will come back

These crazy games you play

Mistakes I made, you let it slide and then moved away and staying distant

Its Killing Me

Losing a friend

Far away from something

Maybe someday the world will listen to those certain individuals that have been wishing for things to change back

Nothing

I never really thought I'd be sittin' here all alone
Staring down at the phone, damn
What did I do that was so wrong

And girl I never thought that you would move on
Can't believe you're gone
It's killing me my heart ain't your home

Now I can't see nothing
Now my everything done
Turned to nothing
What can I do
What can I say
Nothing
Wish I could've stopped
You walking out
Should've screamed out loud

Baby can't you hear me
Can't you hear me
Don't you miss me
Because I'm hurting girl
I wish that you could feel me
I guess there's nothing
Wish that you would talk to me
Or something
But you ain't saying nothing no

I Never even gave you 100%
Never said what i meant
Damn Girl
Never thought you'd be going now
Now my heart is breaking down
Its killing me and now its gone

And now
Thought I was the one
But you done left me out
And now

Now I can't see nothing
Now my everything done
Turned to nothing
What can I do
What can I say
Nothing
Wish I could've stopped
You walking out
Should've screamed out loud

Baby can't you hear me
Can't you hear me
Don't you miss me
Because I'm hurting girl
I wish that you could feel me
I guess there's nothing
Wish that you would talk to me
Or something
But you ain't saying nothing no

One of things i miss most
Is how you made me feel so right
and even though
I'm all alone
Day and night
I'm breaking down
and wishing my baby was next to me
cant you see
Coz now I've got nothing else to lose

It's Killing Me

These past few days have probably been the happiest moments of my holidays and i'm thankful that everything has happened to this point. Although these days have been so great , all great things must come to an end eventually and i guess this is the end of my road.
I love you and what else can i do but wait until you see the same things as i do. If ever that may happen i will be waiting for you.

Brian Sevilla 2506

Prove To You

i really don't know how to say this to you
i know i should of came to you a lot sooner
but its killing me inside
knowing that i'm ready for this
but i love you

Quits

Shes calling it quits

We had problems here and there
But it aint nothing that we can't work out
No doubt, Isn't nothing we can't talk about
All your girls are in your ears
Saying things that , I'm a dog , a player
They say I'm gonna hurt your feelings

They got you giving up on me, on us
Listen baby, misery , misery loves company
Don't listen to them, let's work on us
Don't let all these rumors in
Listen to your man

Not ready to let you go
Not ready to be alone
I don't want to call it quits
Not ready for sudden change
Not ready for separate ways
I don't wanna call it quits

I feel it in the air ,
your a little insecure
Yeah your unsure,
If i am truly yours
Shouldn't be a doubt in your mind, Your my star that shines
Your the only one in the sky


They got you giving up on me, on us
Listen baby, misery , misery loves company
Don't listen to them, let's work on us
Don't let all these rumors in
Listen to your man

Not ready to let you go
Not ready to be alone
I don't want to call it quits
Not ready for sudden change
Not ready for separate ways
I don't wanna call it quits

Promise i won't break your heart
Promise that i will love you that im supposed to ,
Treat you like I'm supposed to
Girl don't let your guard down
Let me make things how they used to be
When we were both happy

Not ready to let you go
Not ready to be alone
I don't want to call it quits
Not ready for sudden change
Not ready for separate ways
I don't wanna call it quits

So Here We Go Again

Looks like i've fallen again
Being stuck between feelings, I still sit here questioning my own thoughts and other things. I guess i'm not too sure what to aim for in life but then again when am i sure?
These past couple of days have been the most uneventful days. Getting my wisdom teeth taken out wasn't the best feeling i've ever had, although i must admit it's not as painful as people make it out to be.

So pretty much my past couple days have consisted of - Waking up in the morning and lying in bed thinking about what i'm going to do with my life.
- Watching anime until i seriously want to die
- Stuffing myself full of jelly and other crap i can drink through a straw
- and repeat =]

HELLO HOLIDAYS! >.>