Slightly uneasy

I don't know what it is but there's always something about a car ride home from work in the middle of the night that always gives a bad feeling. I've been trying to put my finger on it for awhile now but I still can't think of it.

These past few months have been the most confusing for me recently, ever since work started I've started to feel like the people around me are drifting away and ever more so I've really felt isolated from the world. My days are all the same; waking up in the middle of the afternoon heading out to work and then head back home at 4/6am and then repeat. I'll admit it there are times when I go out after work but I never get to spend any quality time with anyone.

It feels like I'm losing all my close friends..

Brian Sevilla

Let's relive the old days

Its been a long two years and I just thought I would get back on the blogspot bandwagon, I came across my friends blog just before and I thought it would be kind of fun to go back to my old beloved blog.

There is always a moment where you look back on your past and realise that you've fucked up hard with all kinds of relationships.

I don't think I could ever leave her or share the same emotions I had with someone else, its been 4 years and it still seems like it was yesterday that I said I love you. I've come to realise that I will never be the same person I was back then, the same person that used to care about every single detail, every single second and every single moment I shared with her. Right now my reputation is one I never wanted in the first place but somehow became.

I want to go back to the person I once was, the person that was motivated everyday just by one single person.

I want the old me back.

Brian Sevilla